Recovery from Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
by Bruce Campbell

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Table of Contents

  1: What Do
      I Do?
  2: Multiple
  3: My Unique
  4: Is Recovery

  5: Loss

  6: Self-Help
  7: Energy
  8: Pacing
  9: Rest
10: Records
11: Exercise
12: Relapses
13: Stress
14: Emotions
15: Support
16: Recovery
17: Lessons
18: What About You?

Bruce Campbell's CFIDS/FM Self-Help Program

1: I'm Really Sick, Now What Do I Do?

I came down with a flu-like illness in the summer of 1997. My doctor told me that the illness was probably caused by an unidentified virus that would run its course in a few weeks. As the weeks passed, however, my symptoms continued and I began to worry. I was puzzled by the bizarre set of symptoms I experienced: exhaustion, waking up tired after many hours of sleep, difficulty concentrating, a generalized aching throughout my whole body, tender lymph nodes in my neck and a puzzling sensitivity to noise and light.

I was confused further by the fluctuation in my symptoms. On some days, the symptoms were low, giving me hope that the illness was ending. But a day or two later, they were back in full force. The overall trend was downhill and I gradually cut back on my hours at work, going from 25 hours a week to 20, then 15 and eventually 12.

For four months, I experienced symptoms without having a name for my suffering. I lived with tremendous uncertainty, wondering what was wrong with me and what my future would hold. Finally, my doctor and I came to a tentative diagnosis of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome or CFS. (The illness is also called by other names, such as CFIDS [Chronic Fatigue and Immune Dysfunction Syndrome] and ME [myalgic encephalomyelitis or myalgic encephalopathy].) Getting a diagnosis was both a relief and a shock. I was grateful to have a name for my strange and debilitating symptoms, but staggered by the recognition that I had a long-term illness.

Choosing Self-Management

To gain perspective, I spent a few hours later that day reading about CFS in the local health library. That amount of research was enough to convince me that medical resources for CFS patients were very limited. It was clear that there was no medical cure for the illness, and the likelihood that effective treatments would be developed in the near future seemed dim, because there was no agreement on the cause of CFS and very little money was being put into research. It was also discouraging to read that there was no standard treatment, that is, no commonly prescribed medication given routinely to CFS patients. Rather, patients were advised to try a variety of different treatments in the hope of finding something that reduced symptoms modestly. What one person found helpful might be ineffective with another. Treatment focused on partial reduction in symptoms rather than addressing the cause. It seemed that the best course the medical world had to offer was a series of experiments with different medications in the hope of finding one or more that would reduce symptoms only slightly.

Since I wanted to get my old life back, I decided to forego that approach. Rather than experimenting with many treatments in the hope of achieving minor symptom improvement, I decided my best chance for getting better was to observe myself and make changes in the way I lived, to adapt to the illness and the limits it had imposed on me. I felt confident I could find things that would help me improve.

Earlier Experience with Self-Help

Previous experience helped shape my decision. One important element in my past was work as a consultant to medical self-help programs at Stanford University. These programs were offered as supplements to regular medical care. Seeing how people had been able to help themselves when living with illnesses like arthritis, cancer, heart disease and stroke had convinced me that how one lives with chronic illness can change its effects and may even change the course of illness. The example offered by patients I met taught me to ask two questions when faced with a medical problem: 1) what help is available from the medical system? and 2) how can I help myself?

In addition to my observation of others, my own prior experience had shown me the value of self-help. Two years before coming down with CFS, I had a mild fatigue which reduced my energy by about 20%. (In retrospect, I wonder if the earlier fatigue might have been a mild form of CFS.) In trying to decide how to address the fatigue, I asked my doctor whether he thought my having blood tests would produce a diagnosis and, if it did, whether that would lead to a treatment. He said that the chances for diagnosing my fatigue through the tests was about 10% and that there was a 10% chance that a test result would suggest a treatment. Given the 1% probability that blood tests would lead to a helpful treatment, I told him I wanted to follow a different path. I felt confident I could find things that would help me if I kept some records. He encouraged me to follow that path. I began a simple health journal, which took about one minute a day to fill out. I quickly learned that I could reduce my fatigue greatly by reducing my activity level by about 15%. I did so and the fatigue went away in a couple of months.

Me and the Medical System

When I decided to respond to CFS by using self-help alone, forgoing experimentation with medical treatments, my decision did not imply a rejection of my doctor. I checked in with him monthly by phone to keep him apprised of my progress and continued to see him for other medical problems. He was supportive of my approach to CFS.

My response was not a rejection of modern medicine in general. When I had cancer earlier in my life, I chose surgery and radiation, and did so for the same reason that I adopted lifestyle change as my treatment for CFS: I thought the path I chose provided the best chance for recovery. Proven medical treatments were available in the first case, so I used them. Self-help seemed the most promising approach to CFS. I felt confident I could find things to help me improve.

I do not mean to imply that others should follow the path of exclusive reliance on self-help to treat CFS or that I would have done that in different circumstances. Had my symptoms been more severe, I might have combined a self-help approach with a medical one. In that case, the possibility of partial symptom reduction using medications might have been strong enough that I would have used them as a supplement to behavior change. But under the circumstances I found myself in, I judged that using self-help exclusively offered me the best chance to control symptoms and improve my quality of life. In the chapters that follow, you will read about the things I found that helped me.